Something you (might not) know

Dear you,

I still remember when we first met. Just two strangers, who occasionally crossing each others' path. It's not kind of my thing tho, talking to strangers, but you did open the gate. So I walked in that empty room. Such a messy place, or should I say, you just had no idea how to arrange it. But you got all you need there; a loving heart, an honest soul, a curious mind, living all together in that mysterious person.

It doesn't even matter actually, cause you would find much more messed up things once you stepped in my life. I am a mess myself.

My wound from the previous battle had not been healed yet. It was still bleeding here and there. I was dying back then. 

But you didn't know it. I took the chance for making me new again. Was I being cruel? Oh, I don't know. All I know is, I was seeking for happiness. I was trying so damn hard to make myself happy again. I never knew that I could be happy just by meeting a stranger. A stranger like you.

I am not that kind of person who can talk to anybody I meet. I used to get this anxiety talking to stranger. Lucky you, cause that night I could push over my anxiety and go for small talks.

Small talks never do me actually, but that night, those small talks we had stays longer than I could ever imagine. It's still there now, the second I write this, and I know it will be there till the second I re-read this over and over again. It will remain the same. 

As time flies by, I am addicted to our small talks. I am addicted to anything we did. Laughing at our lame jokes. Getting lost in the city of light. Rushing in between dark and light. Crying on your shoulder while cursing this terrible world. Eating junk food anytime we like while keeping the idea of having a good diet. I always yell at you when you eat too much spicy foods while I'm eating them as much as you do. Lol. 

We don't always like the same thing tho. I remember getting so scared and hiding behind my jacket all the time during horror movie that you enjoy so much. You keep asking me questions when we went to the wizarding world cause you're just a muggle who never heard of magic. We even argued so hard when we read "Why Men Want Sex and Women Need Love" even though deep down in our hearts we believe the book is quite right at some points. We just don't want to admit it. I also always comment on your habit of taking the picture of your food. I always say you are "alay" and give you that smirk you always smiling at. Then I laugh, you are so funny and silly, but I like it even more.

If life goes against us, I hope we still find the reason to be happy. If the universe let me be that person kissing you good night everyday, I want these little things will always be our reminder that we started everything together, and we are on this together. No matter how hard it is, I will be here to hold your hand and walk beside you. But if it's not me waking up next to you someday, I hope you will never be that horrible guy mistreating his woman, whoever she is.

Love,

The stranger who falls in love with you over and over again ❤️